Friday, December 18, 2009

Motivation People!

I am having trouble getting motivated for the holidays. I don't know what's up. I don't want to go to anyone's house. I can't afford to go to my mom's (tickets around $500 seems like a huge waste of money). Granted most holidays I end up crying for some reason. The reason varies and it's usually over something stupid.

Right now work is slow and it happens every decemeber. I am traveling again for work and I leave in 16 days. So right now, It's filler time at work. Just trying to finish up what I can before I leave.

I am in a rut right now. There are few things that are in the pipeline to reach for over the next few months but it's all dependent on manangement. (we have temporary manager for my department) I know the things are coming aren't going to happen until we have permanent management. If the temp guy for CA wants to stay I am all for it. He is awesome but I want permanence so I can fight for a promotion I want.

The only thing that seems to help lately is going to the gym. Lame I know but it is something with in my grasp to get right now. If that is the only thinkg keeping me sane I will just have to accept it. The really sad thing is there is a happy hour tonight for a co worker who is transferring and I would rather go to the gym. The thought of going to a crowded bar I don't like to say good bye to someone I do like...

my mood is all over the place

Wednesday, December 16, 2009


This morning while putting on lotion I noticed something amazing.
My stomach is not as big as it was. It isn't flat but it is flatter than it was
Now when I suck in my stomach, girls you know what I am talking about, its easier and I can feel the muscles working. Lately I have been trying to suck in stomach while running/eliptical and I feel it. Maybe that is helping!!

What motivation to actually notice a body part get smaller.

Gave blood yesterday so no gym last night. Really did not want to faint on the treadmill. That would be bad. So last night ended up watching tv and going to bed at 9:30. Super early for me. But I slept really well.

Tonight back to gym. Going to start Week 3 of Couch to 5K. Can't tell you how much I love this program. While I am running it can suck but I have been building my staminia which has been my goal.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009


Another gym day! It still sucks to run but it is definitely getting easier. I never thought that would happen. I did dfind my miracle song that got me through the last few minutes of running. Sheena is a Punk Rocker by the Ramones. Now to redo my work out mix so I have a running mix and a regular work out mix.

Last night was a short work out but you know what. I went and some days that is all that matters. Weight is holding steady no major decreases. I think if I can start eating better I will see a decrease in weight.

Monday, December 14, 2009

I have been really bad the last week or so. No tracking foods. Just haven't been up to it. I have been going to the gym though. The really bad thing is that I am not eating a healthy balanced diet. I just can't seem to get motivated for that. More often then once this week my dinner consisted of cereal. That really isn't good. But when that is all you want/crave it's hard. I need to spend part of my weekend cooking for the week and freezing meals. I know that when I have done it in the past it has been very convienient however with my impending travel everything requires so much more effore. (Why bother doing this or that when I am going to be gone for a month)

Tonight I will do Day 3, week 2 of C25K. I am actually looking forward to it. The rest of the week will be week 3, which is actually a repeat of week 2. I was happy when I read that. After starting week 2, it being easier then I thought I was thinking I would really like to have 2 weeks of it to help with my stamina. I am still struggling at the end of my runs but I keep doing it.