Wednesday, October 12, 2011

I cheated

I hate my job. I never used to say that. But I do. I keep hoping things will get better. But that hasn't happened. The reason I mention this, is that it is affecting me more than just work. I don't have energy and I don't seem to be hitting the gym as much.The gym knows when you cheat and isn't forgiving.   Tonight I went to the gym, I struggled to spend 30 min on the eliptical, it was just a few weeks ago I would spend 60 min no problem. Now I am really struggling. It sucks. I know the only way to fix this. Is to get back into a routine. I think that will help with how I feel about work. Exercise is the best anti-depressant.

  That has been life lately and I don't like but I am working on fixing it. just back into a routine of coming home, changing and heading straight for the gym.  I keep having excuses and that won't work. Tomorrow is a friends going away happy hour.

I also need to work on what I am eating. I think  I am eating "okay" but I am not getting enough fruit and veg and that makes a heck of a difference. I have been eating more bread, whole grain but still. I think that is hurting me too. I am sensitive to bread. I lose weight when I reduce bread. I just need to focus on lean proteins, veggies and fruit.

That is my goal for the next few weeks. This week it has been about taking vitamins. I took Vitamin Code, Perfect Weight few years ago and liked how I felt. A friend gave a recent review of them helping her eczema so I thought it was worth a try.. I have also been trying to take calcium and vitamin D daily. My doctor has been on me about that for awhile since I am not a fan of milk. I have been doing good. I leave them on my table and take them with breakfast. and dinner. The calcium/vitamin D combo should be 3 x a day but I just forget at work. But this seems to be working.

Ran by the store after the gym, they had a bag of apples that just looked so delicious. I got a bag of apples and a bag of oranges. I will make those my snacks at work.

Each day is an opportunity to be better. I just need to rememberthat.