Groceries

Grocery shopping. So hard to buy the good stuff. I hate buying fresh veg because I am afraid it will go bad before I can cook it. Then if I buy frozen veg, it lives in my freezer and I forget about it. Half of my problem is I over eat and make too much food and its too much of the "bad" stuff. Jillian Michaels I know she wouldn't approve of my eating habits and lack of gym time. I keep watching it Losing It! I know there is more to my procrastination. As you can tell I am obsessed with Jillian and Bob from The Biggest Loser


My sister has been staying with me the last few weeks. I have definitely had poor eating habits with her here. It's my own fault. I have been very easily swayed to not eat right. And I am buying the bad stuff.

I have no will power :(

head above water

No travel n the horizon. I remember thinking that work and travel were so glamorous. Not anymore. I missed so much in my life. I missed my friends. M and I broke up. I honestly think if I had been home more we wouldn't have lasted as long as we did. Almost a year and half. Every so often I get sad and miss him but then I realize I deserve better and I deserve someone who wants the same things as me.


Gone from being a brunette to a red head. Think I will go more a golden orange color. My hair has been fading to this great shade but now to copy it from the beginning. This is the color I like. I kind of like http://www.ioncolorbrilliance.com/Permanent_Hair_Color/Shades/

Level: 7 - Medium Blonde

Tone: Red-Copper

I keep waiting for my life to start. I know that isn't the right way to go. I need to just hit the gym, cook more at home and cook real meals with sides etc. I finally feel like my head is above water but it's taken awhile.I know I need to hit the gym, I feel great after the gym, but getting there lately has been rough. I have a little over a month before the fitting for my bridesmaid dress. I know I can't work miracles but I would like to tone up a bit and do some fake n bake. I don't want to be NJ orange but have some healthy color.

A New Year, Same Me

Back in California. Here until February. I have decided to go home once. But it is a super quick visit. I am going to see my sister in San Franciso over the MLK holiday weekend. Can't wait. I am sure I will get plenty of exercise just walking around.

Here is the hard part of traveling for work. Eating out. Every meal, every day. So hard to order the healthy option. I don't want salad all the time and man, sometimes that giant eclair is just calling my name.(Last night at Brent's Deli Walking distance from hotel)

I did go to the gym last night. Short work out but better than none. I was looking into joining a gym here but it's $75 for a 30 day pass to 24 Hour Fitness. Considering I pay $20 a month. That is a lot of money when I just use hotel gym. I would join if it was cheaper. Oh well, may just get a 7 day pass to check it out for fun.

I want the The Body Bugg by 24 Hour Fitness. I want it so bad. Can't see myself sepending $200+ for it though. (prices I found varied on source of sale and timing and of course if you got the watch like display) I know that right now while I am heavier I will burn more calories and as I lose the weight calories burning rations will decrease as I have less mass to lug around. I still would like to have a more accurate way to measure/monitor the calories I burn every day.

That is all for now. Going to a nice Italian place for dinner so I know I will eat a bunch tonight but tomorrow I will do a better work out at gym.

Post Christmas. Didn't lose any weight but I didn't gain either. Ended up not going to gym at all last week. Back to normal this week and then I leave for California on Sunday.

My sister is back in CT for winter term and then to finish her degree. I have missed her a lot. Glad she is back. She is going to go to gym with me tonight. Let's see if she sticks to it.