Bad Ree

I have been struggling a bit with the diet.

I finished phase 1 on Wed. night. Then Thursday was mom's retirement
party at work. (2 cookies and some beer bread)
Was good on Friday but had a brownie at a party Friday night. (I had
steamed chicken and veggies minus corn and carrots)
Then Sat and Sun guests in from out of town and breakfast with my mom.
(everything from french fries to ice cream and pancakes and hasbrowns
the next morning)
Then Mon a pizza party at work. It's been months since I have had
pizza and I had a peice of friend chicken yesterday. Seriously I just
kept stumbling.
So the last 6 days have been BAD. Back to phase 1.
I need it. Going to gym tonight which will help. I always feel better
with the gym. Its becoming a good addiction. Sometimes I hate going
(lazyiness) but I feel so much better when I do. I just need to keep
remembering that. And for me the only way I will reach my goals is to
hit the gym on a regular basis. Sadly period is due next week which
means water weight gain.

More of my clothes are falling off. Great for weight loss, Bad for my
budget. I can't afford anything new. In process of digging myself out
of mini financial hole that I put myself in.

Still can't get my scale to show me body fat percentage. I feel like
the biggest moron that I can't get the scale to work.
Seriously, how stupid am I? I found the instruction manual and it
still doesn't work. I stand in different postions, feet wet or damp
and nothing.
I think I need to find someone who will come to my house. Try it out
and hopefully work then I can figure out what they did right and what
I did wrong.

I have been reading PastaQueen awhile and
its good motivation that she lost so much with diet and exercise. I
know it takes time. But its frustrating.
I have been following South Beach but not the recipes in the book. I
should, I know this but I don't have time/energy to prep that much. I
made the quiche to go cups but they are a back up for me. I normally
have time to make my morning omelet.

Clothes

With all the weight loss and mostly toning, clothes have not been fitting well. And my bras haven't fit well in awhile.
A while back a friend mentioned how she went to Nordstroms for a bra fitting. Well, the last few yrs I have been wearing a 44 DD. Well per nordstroms. I am a 42 F. Yes an F. Scary because. A) less selections and B) holy crap! I am an F.

Also I had a gift card for Lane Bryant and needed new jeans. The ones I had were just too big. They look like mom jeans. Bad! So I was wearing 5's. ( Lane Bryant has their own sizing) I thought I was a 4 maybe if I was lucky, a 3. Guess what. I am a 2!!!!
I can't believe it. I am so happy!!!

I did notice that skin on my stomach has stretch marls. So I need to start using lotion or the the stuff pregnant women use.

Any suggestions to get rid of stretch marks?
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It's that time. Measurements!

Where... 10.15.08/10.22.08/10.29.08
Hips: 54"/52.5"/51" (-1.5)
Waist: 44.5/42.5/41.5" (1)
Chest: 51"/50"/50" (same)
Under chest: 43.5/41.5/40" (-1.5)

Here it is. I have been on SouthBeach for 2 full weeks.
I haven't lost that much. In fact I have gained 2 lbs this week. But I
am losing inches.
I think I like losing inches more. Weight has never been accurate for
me. when I was thinner, my weight was higher then people expected.
I think for me as much as I want to foocus on a goal weight I need to
focus in the interim on how my body looks. aka. What size I am and
how many inches I lose.
I know I am gaining muscle mass. I can feel it. If I hold my arm out
for a bicep show thing. I have actual muscle definition. Not much but
some and for me that is an improvement.

I keep working on improving my mile. When I first started working out.
Walking I was at under 21 minutes. Last night I hit personal best of
16:45 min. I run some and walk some. My endurance for runnning is
still short but my recovery time is faster. It doesn't help that I
have big boobs and am in need of a good sports bra.

Blarg

I must be an idiot.
I found the instruction manual for my scale. I re read and I should be getting body fat % readings. But no. Not working. I tried it in different rooms (kitchen and bathroom) wondering maybe my bathroom floor was un even. Nope. Still doesn't work. I don't know.

My friend Liz said that her friend X, who is a big guy is able to get a reading on his scale.
So why can't I? This is frustrating. I just want to know so I can better grasp of my heatlhy.
I have dampened my feet.

I am on my last day of phase 1 for South Beach. I am not sure if I am going to extend it or not.
I am thinking I am going to go to phase 2 for a few days. People visiting and what not. Then go back to phase 1 on monday. I have gained a few pounds the last few days which sucks. It's not water weight I think its just weight fluctuating. I find that mon-wed weight is higher then later in week/weekend. I think the fact that Sunday is a slacker day for me and since I don't do much.. I don't burn calories. I am starting to hit the gym on saturdays so I think that will help as well.